Loop Of Insanity

​As I fall deeper into the depths of my mind,

I find there is a lapse in all things kind

Free spirit is what you think you are,

But you are bound by the clock that keeps the hour

Always forced to pursue vacant happiness,

Forced to conform with this society’s madness

No,this is not the way I want to be,

I would rather die than in your world be free,

For you see,there is nothing but pain and misery,

In my mind,where the demons of the past run free

Lost within and stuck inside this loop of insanity,

I wont be force fed your version of clarity,

I will find my way through this psychotic reality,

And fly away free from the pull of your complacent gravity

I refuse to be a part of your lack of understanding,

I refuse to contribute to the lies that led to my maddening,

I will travel beyond and find the truth though it is saddening,

I would rather die than succumb to your system’s demanding

I’m caught in this loop of insanity,

Searching for a vision with no clarity,

Unsuccumbing to society’s lucid conformity,

I will find my way through your mundane reality

Far above and beyond,but within,

In a pale land without honour or sin,

Insanity to me is as close as blood-kin,

A freind against whom I cannot fathom to win

Far away from your world of fantasy,

I’m caught in this loop of insanity,

Coming to grip with this world’s reality,

Always searching for a vision with no clarity

No words

​I had a weird dream today. So weird. It was just me and another person. We were in some fancy apartment. I don’t know whose because I’ve never seen it before myself. So I was sitting on the sofa and the person was on the balcony. We did not speak a single word with each other. But we just stared into each others eyes without saying a word. We exchanged thoughts and experiences like this for what seemed like an eternity. The persons eyes started to swell up with tears when I exposed my emotions. I could only look and do nothing. Both of us just stared into each others eyes the whole time. No words were ever spoken. 

Am I Pain?

Is the person Death?

Am I painfully ascending?

Or am I painlessly descending?

Am I flying?

Or am I falling?

The Voice Inside

​The voice inside your head,

Let’s you be

The voice inside your head,

Commands you to see

The voice inside your head let’s you be,

More than anything around that you see

The voice inside chokes,coughs and dies,

And your soul becomes naked to all the lies

The voice inside used to perceive,

All the truth there is to receive

Hear the voice inside my friend,

And meet with Death, your end

Sometimes

Sometimes I wake up,

Caught in the delusions of a distant dream

Sometimes I wake up ,

Trying to comprehend why I scream

Other times I am asleep,

Conversing with my dear friend’s Pain and Death

Other times I am asleep,

Choking on my past and gasping for a hopeful breath

Sometimes I wake up,

And look at my vacant face in the mirror

Sometimes I wake up,

And wear a mask to hide my grief and horror

Other times I am asleep,

Looking at this painful life in endless wonder

Other times I am asleep,

Thinking –  Just what was it that tore this life asunder?

Sometimes I wake up,

And I find myself searching for a cure

Sometimes I wake up,

Trying to heal the pain inside and avoid Death’s allure

Other times I am asleep,

Hoping that this would morph into an Endless Sleep

Other times I am asleep,

Both Void and Devoid in Death’s fabled sacred keep

Sometimes I wake up,

Thinking – I should accuse you for my Soul’s theft

Sometimes I wake up,

Crying – Just why was it that you left?

Dead Inside

​So much more to live for,

So much more to hope for,

So much left to cry for,

So much left to die for

This world that I force myself into,

Of which I am a part,

Refuses to entertain the thoughts,

That tear me apart

Cold outside,

Dead Inside

Answer me my friend,

When will I see my end?

How?When?Why? Now?Soon?Later?

A drama for all to see in a theatre?

Pointless living day in and day out,

I stare at you, scream and shout

Cold soul forever monotone and alone,

Staring at you all, unreacting like a stone

Answer me my friend,

When will I see my end?

The world is so cold outside,

I stare at it, dead inside

Seven Coffins

“Hello. I’ll have the usual Death”

“Hello Pain. How many more times are you going to keep coming back?”

“I’ll keep coming back I guess. Now,then. I’ll have my usual.Please give me one Last Breath”

Take a walk with the Light,

Your mind just might…

See the light show you things beyond,

Your eyes slowly start perceiving and correspond…

Crumble…oh humble Light,

Please cry and die bright

Give birth to Seven of them,

Get a little closer to Life’s helm

Understand all Seven are deathbeds,

Vibrant coffins for evolved heads

Our mind’s converge into one,

The Vibrant, they feed us Fun

Meet your new friend,

Meet your unknown end

Await for Perception into…

Away from Light into…

Awake from Life into…

Into what?

Seven become One,

Dark is the new Sun…

(Or was it Son?)

“Hello again Death!

I’ll have my usual please, one Last Breath”